Page of Pentacles, 4 of Swords, 3 of Swords & The Hanged Man — A Tarot Check-In

Lately, I’ve been feeling this undeniable pull—like I’m standing at the edge of something new, but I don’t quite have the clarity to leap. So, I pulled some cards. Just four. And they landed with a quiet kind of thunder:

Page of Pentacles. Four of Swords. Three of Swords.
And peeking from the back of the deck like a whisper impossible to ignore: The Hanged Man.

Page of Pentacles: Where It All Begins

There’s a part of me that’s eager. Curious. Ready to start again—maybe in a small way, but it still counts. The Page of Pentacles reminds me that I don’t have to have it all figured out to begin. I just have to be willing to learn. Willing to walk the spiral path, even if I don’t know exactly where it’s headed.

Right now, I’m planting seeds. Lots of them. Some are creative. Some are emotional. Some might not sprout for a while, but I’m starting to trust the soil I’m growing in.

Four of Swords: The Sacred Pause

After that first spark comes the exhale. This card is such a necessary reminder: rest isn’t lazy—it’s holy. I’ve been craving silence. Not just quiet around me, but that deep kind of stillness that lets your nervous system, and your chocolate starfish, unclench.

I’m realizing that recovery isn’t just from chaos or heartbreak—it can also come after growth. Even positive shifts can leave us feeling raw. And that’s okay.

Three of Swords: The Ache That Still Echoes

This one hit hard. I didn’t want to admit that my heart is still carrying some shrapnel. Old grief, unspoken disappointment, the ache of letting go (even when it’s right).

But I also know the Three of Swords in the Light Seer’s deck isn’t just about pain. It’s about feeling it to release it. Letting the heart bleed so it can heal in real time. Some wounds don’t disappear, but they stop defining you once they’re fully acknowledged.

Reminds me of a J. Mike Fields post I saw on Facebook the other day, "Resist the urge to make yourself feel better. That is avoidance. Let yourself feel bad, and it will pass."

The Hanged Man: The Soul Surrender

The card that stayed hidden until I looked deeper. And of course, it’s the Hanged Man. The invitation to surrender. To let go of needing answers right now. To lean into the in-between.

This card feels like the real heartbeat of my reading. It’s not about fixing or forcing anything—it’s about seeing differently. About finding the beauty in the pause, and letting my whole perspective shift as I hang suspended in the unknown.

If You’re Here Too...

If you’re also somewhere between grief and growth, ambition and exhaustion—I see you. Maybe we’re not meant to rush this part. Maybe this is the space where something sacred starts to rewire. Where we rest. Where we feel. Where we begin again, slow and soft and true.

Here’s to trusting the process.
Even when it hurts.
Even when it’s quiet.
Even when we’re not sure what’s next.

The One Where Lilith Yelled at Me (With Love)

A 3-Card Spread with a back story.

I was brushing my teeth this morning and my Lilith necklace fell off my neck and went down the sink drain. I was able to retrieve it but felt it was definitely a call to pull some cards and see what Spirit was trying to tell me. This is what happened.

Card 1: The Tower

Something in your life is crumbling, and guess what? That’s sacred. Lilith doesn’t destroy what you need—she destroys what’s been holding you hostage. What needs to fall so you can finally breathe?

🜃 Reflection:
What structures, beliefs, or identities are no longer aligned with the real me?

Card 2: The Star

From the chaos, you rise. This card reminds you that healing is not a return to what was, but a re-creation of what can be. You’re stepping into your raw radiance now.

🜁 Reflection:
What truth is emerging from my healing process that wants to be honored?

Card 3: The Queen of Swords

This is the part where you stop apologizing and start articulating. Your truth is razor-sharp, earned, and divine. Wield it wisely, but don’t dull it for comfort.

🜂 Reflection:
Where do I need to speak up, cut cords, or reinforce a boundary?

Affirmation:

“I am not here to be soft and silent. I am here to rise, radiant and ruthless, in the full truth of who I am.”

Lilith: Demonized Diva or Divine Rebel?

Before Eve, There Was Drama

In the Alphabet of Ben Sira (a spicy little 10th-century Jewish text that reads like a mythological gossip column), Lilith shows up as Adam’s first wife. Unlike Eve—who, let’s be honest, got the raw end of the “made from rib” deal—Lilith was made from the same earth as Adam. Equal footing. Literally.

But when it came time for Adam to assert his "dominance" (read: missionary position forever), Lilith said, “I’m good, thanks,” and peaced out with all the flair of a woman who’s had just enough of your ego and your mud hut. She spoke the true name of God (because of course she did), sprouted wings, and flew off into the wilds.

Did God go after her? Nope. He just made Eve instead. Adam got a quieter model, and Lilith got centuries of slander.

From Free Woman to Baby-Thirsty Boogeywoman

After ghosting Eden, Lilith’s reputation tanked faster than a celebrity breakup on Twitter. She became the monster under the cradle—literally. In later Jewish folklore, Lilith is blamed for sudden infant death, male impotence, and basically every problem that could be solved by blaming a powerful woman.

Cue the talismans, amulets, and bedtime prayers designed to keep her away. Why? Because nothing terrifies fragile power structures more than a woman who says “no” and means it.

But Wait—Is That a Goddess Glow-Up?

Enter modern mystics, witches, feminists, and dark divine fan clubs who saw through the demon smear campaign and went, “Wait… this chick was awesome.” Instead of a baby-snatcher, they saw a woman who claimed autonomy, embraced her sexuality, and refused to submit.

In the modern era—especially within feminist spirituality and certain branches of occultism—Lilith has been reclaimed as a dark goddess, an archetype of raw feminine power. She's invoked in rituals, featured in tarot, and name-dropped in more feminist manifestos than you'd expect.

Some even tie her back to older Mesopotamian figures like Lilitu or Lamashtu—ancient female spirits with a complicated vibe. Yes, they were a bit demonic too, but you know how it is. Ancient history was messy.

So… Demon or Goddess? Or Both?

Here’s the twist: Maybe Lilith is both. Maybe she’s the shadow and the light, the curse and the cure. She’s been vilified, deified, blamed, worshipped, misunderstood, and reimagined. Honestly? She’s everything patriarchal systems were afraid women would become.

Which makes her kind of perfect.

Lilith in the Now – Candles, Charts, and Cult Followings

 Modern Rituals: Witch, Please

Today, Lilith is thriving in sacred circles. She’s the patron saint of witches who wear black on purpose, don’t shave their legs unless they feel like it, and hex misogyny with one raised eyebrow.

You’ll find Lilith invoked in rituals that focus on reclaiming power, healing from patriarchal wounds, setting fierce boundaries, or embracing raw, unapologetic sensuality. Think candle magic, blood magic (yeah, that kind), full-moon rage burns, and wild dancing in your underwear while screaming your truth.

Altars to Lilith often include dark flowers, snakes (symbolic, not literal—unless your apartment allows exotic pets), red wine, obsidian, and anything that screams “I’m not here to be polite.” She's especially powerful in shadow work—the deep, messy kind of inner work that doesn’t wear glitter and light incense. Lilith doesn’t soothe you. She shows you what you’ve been suppressing and dares you to love it anyway.

Lilith in Astrology: The Bad Bitch in Your Birth Chart*

In astrology, there’s a point called Black Moon Lilith—not a planet, but a lunar apogee, representing the farthest point of the Moon’s orbit around Earth. Translation? It’s the cosmic point that shows where you’re most rebellious, sexual, and unwilling to compromise.

Your Lilith placement reveals where you throw off societal expectations, embrace your inner wildness, and might scare the hell out of people who think you should be “nice.” It’s the space where you refuse to submit.

Lilith in Aries? You won’t take orders from anyone.
Lilith in Scorpio? Sexy, psychic, and possibly plotting.
Lilith in Capricorn? You burn the system down strategically.

There’s also Dark Moon Lilith and Asteroid Lilith—because apparently one Lilith just wasn’t enough. (Classic.)

 Pop Culture: The Glow-Up Continues

Lilith’s been creeping through pop culture like she never left. She shows up as:

• Frasier’s ex-wife (yes, that Lilith)—cold, sharp, brilliant, and unbothered. A totally sanitized but still telling nod to her mythic name.

• Supernatural’s Lilith—a child-demon with an attitude and zero chill. Not exactly flattering, but definitely fierce.

• Lucifer (Netflix)—where she shows up as a charming, bisexual nightclub owner and absolute queen. Now that’s more like it.

• In video games, comic books, even Dungeons & Dragons, where she’s depicted as a seductive and powerful archdevil. Apparently, even Hell can’t resist a good rebrand.

And don’t even get me started on how many goth bands, witchy shops, and dark-feminine perfume lines are named after her. She’s basically a vibe, a brand, and a whole mood.

Final Word: Lilith Doesn’t Need Your Labels

So—demon or goddess? Monster or muse? Honestly, Lilith couldn’t care less what you call her. She’s here for the ones who’ve been told they’re too much, too loud, too angry, too wild.

In truth, Lilith is all of the above. She’s shadow and sovereignty. Sin and sacredness. A mythic mirror for everyone who’s ever had to fight for their own damn voice.

So light a candle, cast your chart, cue the playlist—and channel your inner Lilith. Because if she taught us anything, it’s this:

You don’t have to stay where you’re not free.

Blessed, Boundaried & Battle-Ready

Divine Feminine Oracle Card Deck

Buckle up, babe, because this spread is serving spiritual glow-up, zero-tolerance-for-BS energy, and divine intervention with a side of warrior queen vibes. Let’s get into it:

Anandamayi Ma (The Joy-Permeated Mother) – The Chill Guru

This divine queen floats in like, “Why are you so stressed? Joy is an inside job, babe.” She’s basically telling you to stop waiting for external validation, a bank account upgrade, or the perfect relationship to be happy. You already are joy, you just forgot. Time to drop the drama, surrender to the divine, and remember that happiness isn't something Amazon Prime can deliver. You gotta cultivate it yourself.

Lilith (The Original Rebel) – The ‘I Do What I Want’ Queen

Ah, Lilith—ultimate "I’m not here to please you" energy. She walked out on Adam because she refused to be subservient, and she’s here to ask you: Where are you playing small? Where are you silencing yourself just to keep the peace? If you’ve been shrinking to fit someone else’s expectations, Lilith is throwing up a red flag and yelling, “Nope, we don’t do that here.” She’s the cosmic permission slip to be wild, independent, and fully in your power.

Catherine Labouré (The Miraculous) – Your Direct Line to the Divine Help Desk

Catherine is over here reminding you that miracles happen when you actually believe in them. She’s the divine hotline to Mary herself, so if you’ve been doubting whether Spirit’s got your back, this is your neon sign in flashing lights. Got a problem that feels impossible? Catherine is like, “Oh, ye of little faith, watch this.” Expect synchronicities, divine timing, and possibly some “WTF just happened?” moments in the near future.

Joan of Arc (The OG Warrior) – The ‘Not Today, Satan’ Energy

Ah yes, Joan of Arc, the armored-up, sword-wielding, zero time for nonsense badass. She’s the energy lingering at the back of the deck, which means you’re being called to trust yourself and take action, even if the haters don’t get it. People doubted her, betrayed her, and still—she held her ground. So if you’re feeling nervous about stepping into your purpose, Joan is here with her battle cry: “DO IT ANYWAY.”

The Bottom Line:

Your spirit team is not playing around right now. You are being called to:

✅ Be happy now, not “when” (Anandamayi Ma)
✅ Own your power and stop explaining yourself (Lilith)
✅ Trust that miracles are unfolding for you (Catherine Labouré)
✅ Stand firm in your truth, no matter who doubts you (Joan of Arc)

This is a major spiritual upgrade. You’re stepping into a phase where the old you—the one who hesitated, second-guessed, or played it safe—is getting evicted. The new you? Confident, in alignment, and fully aware that she is THAT girl.

So, tell me—are you ready to level up, reclaim your power, and let the miracles roll in? Because your guides sure as hell are.

The Witch Wound: Why You’re Afraid to Own Your Magic (and How to Fix It)

So, You Might Be a Witch—But You’re Low-Key Afraid of It

Ever felt like speaking your truth would get you metaphorically (or literally, once upon a time) burned at the stake? Ever hesitated before saying something spiritual, witchy, or intuitive in certain circles because you just knew some asshole would roll their eyes? So rude. Or maybe you’ve second-guessed charging for your tarot readings or energy work because somewhere deep down, it feels… unsafe or just wrong?

Congratulations, comrade. You might be dealing with a Witch Wound—an ancestral, societal, and past-life fear of persecution for embracing your power. And no, it’s not just imposter syndrome with an enigmatic aesthetic. This one runs deep.

WTF is the Witch Wound?

The Witch Wound is the collective trauma carried by intuitive, magical, and powerful beings due to centuries of witch hunts, oppression, and being told that "people like you" are dangerous, evil, or delusional. It’s the reason you get nervous talking about your spiritual path in certain spaces. It’s why some people hesitate to fully step into their power, even though their soul is practically SCREAMING, "This is what you’re meant to do!"

The Witch Wound is a survival instinct. Your ancestors—whether they were healers, herbalists, midwives, or they were spittin’ spells—learned the hard way that being too powerful could get them accused, exiled, or executed. And while society might not be throwing people in the fire these days, that fear is still alive in our collective subconscious. So, how might this show up in your life? Oh, let us count the ways.

Signs You Have a Witch Wound

You’re Afraid of Being Seen

You hold back on sharing your gifts, whether it’s tarot, astrology, or energy healing, because you don’t want to be judged. You keep your spiritual practice on the low-low—maybe only one or two trusted friends know anything about it. You fear what your family, partner, or co-workers would think if they knew how woo-woo you really are.

Because, once upon a time, being “too seen” meant serious consequences. So your subconscious is like, "Nope, let’s stay invisible. Thanks, I’ll pass."

You Downplay Your Power (Or Feel Unworthy of It)

You hesitate to call yourself a witch, intuitive, healer, or mystic because who am I to claim that title? You constantly second-guess your spiritual abilities, even though deep down you know you’re too legit to quit. You struggle to charge for your spiritual work because it feels “wrong” to profit from something sacred – a gift.

Hint: If you’ve ever felt like you need to prove yourself before you can “officially” step into your magic, that’s the Witch Wound talking.

You’re a Chronic People-Pleaser (Especially in Spiritual Spaces)

You avoid conflict like it’s an actual curse and would rather shrink than risk upsetting someone.  You’ve been called “too much” or “too intense” and now you dim your light to keep people comfortable. You water down your beliefs or try to sound rational so people won’t think you’re “crazy.”

This comes from centuries of women and mystics being told to stay small, stay quiet, and not rock the boat—because those who did? They didn’t always make it.

You Fear Rejection or Being Labeled as “Bizarre”

You still have an instinctual fear that spirituality and/or witchcraft might be “bad” (thanks, religious conditioning). You feel nervous when talking about your magic around certain people (especially the ultra-religious ones). Or maybe you’ve been accused of being “demonic” or “delusional” at some point in your journey.

Witch trials didn’t really disappear—they just moved to the internet. But guess what? Other people’s fear doesn’t define you. That’s their journey.

You Struggle to Fully Step into Your Magic

You procrastinate on fully committing to your spiritual path, even though it calls to you. You feel like something is blocking you from embracing your gifts (spoiler: it’s fear). You’re waiting for “the right time” to show up as your full, magical self. Or maybe you aren’t even fully aware of it yet but there’s something tugging at your soul.

The right time is now. The world needs your magic. And the only thing standing in your way is the illusion of danger.

  How to Heal the Witch Wound

Alright, now that we’ve called out the wound, how do we go about fixing it?

Recognize That You Are Safe

You are not in medieval Europe. Or Salem. No one is coming for you with torches. The world has changed, and you are allowed to exist, thrive, and be powerful af.

Repeat after me… “I am safe to be seen. I am safe to be powerful.”

Reclaim Your Power (Even When It Feels Scary)

Every time you speak your truth, share your gifts, stand in your power, and stop fucking apologizing for who you are...you heal not just yourself, but generations before and after you.

So, say it loud for the people in the back… “My power is sacred, and I embrace it fully.”

Find Your “Coven”

You are NOT meant to do this alone. Surround yourself with like-minded people who get it. Whether that’s an online group, a local circle, or just a couple of witchy friends. Community heals.

Now what are we going to do? That is correct…we will seek out safe spaces where we can be our genuine, magical selves.

Own Your Identity Without Fear

If you’re a witch, healer, intuitive, oracle, or any other spiritual badass—OWN IT. The more you claim your magic, the more you break the cycle of fear.

Recite this to yourself often… “I am powerful beyond measure, and I claim my magic with confidence.”

Do the Damn Thing

Want to start reading tarot professionally? Start an energy healing business? Write about witchcraft? (Hello. Hi.) Do it. The more you act in alignment with your power, the more the Witch Wound loses its grip. Of no less importance is the pure ecstatic energy rush you get from living authentically. You know? The kind of energy that makes your nether regions tingle? Yeah, you do.

Take one step today that embraces your magic, no matter how small.

 Final Truth Bomb: You May Have Been Born for This

The Witch Wound is real, and you may be suffering from it, but your power is real too. The best way to heal this shit-show?  Be unapologetically YOU. Zero fucks given. The world doesn’t need more people hiding in their shadows. It needs more magic-makers, truth-speakers, and light-bringers. And that includes you, you majestic little moonbeam. So go forth, my wild and witchy friend. The fire they tried to burn you with? That’s the same fire you’re rising from.